Honor: 13 [ Give / Take ]
7 entries this month
Super fantastic!
21:42 Apr 21 2007
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Yea bitches it feels good to be alive for a change, I'm not so miserable anymore I've got a smile on my face. This smile seems to be imprinted here and it won't go away! Why am I so happy? I don't know this is even a mystery to myself, maybe the only thing I can think of...is that I'm not so alone anymore. Lonliness drives me crazy don't get me wrong I love my alone time. However I do not wish to be alone all the time, some how things just aren't so lonesome anymore.
I'll be making my portfolio this week yay that's definetly something worth looking forward to. The only thing that troubles me is that somehow I seem to make people pissed off at me and I don't even have the slightest clue how. Sorry my world cannot be all about you, sorry that things are looking better for me. How could someone be angry at me because things are getting better?!
My ex is so pathetic we're done we've been so since November, get a life and move on fucker! I may love him but it's only in a caring good friend kind of way. He called me like everyday but only during his breaks from work, he could never call me during the day, know why? He didn't have time for me, never has never will that's why he can stick it straight up his ass and twist it sideways! To be angry at me because I like someone else, psh I'd be happy if he moved on and liked another girl. I'm entilted to like someone else and get butterflies in my tummy when I'm around them. I've missed that for so long, what kinda person who says they love you would want to deny me of that? A selfish asshole who doesn't love me.
The way I feel is so good without use of drugs or alcohol, I am super fantastic! ^_^
My life has moved on for the better, I'm happy I'm modeling and am going to be doing what I love. I forgot about my ex (hellz yea!) I've started liking someone else finally, and I'm not all alone anymore. I don't feel by myself I don't feel hated, but loved. I am free from everything that kept me bound, and now it's time to ROCK 'N' ROLL!!!
*blushes*
16:37 Apr 12 2007
Times Read: 707
Ok so I made a new friend we talked on the phone for like 2 hours last night! It's been a while since I've done that with any girl let alone a guy. We have a lot in common and we live pretty close to eachother, but get this here's the best part...he's absolutly delicous! ^_^
Yay luck is shining down on me for once.
I have my shoot today which'll be great I'm excited...
plus I think Pinky likes someone wooo!
I'll update later and let y'all know how it goes!
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woo
16:57 Apr 11 2007
Times Read: 709
Yea I'm in Mt. Vernon now chillin at my cousin's place. I got to see a couple people I wanted to so far, but I'm not done yet! Today is a whole new day with all new goals and everything...but hey while I'm here why not make one of those goals to get some? No seriously it's been a while and that just ain't kool. Let's see if I can achieve my goals today ready, set, GO!
Party
02:10 Apr 10 2007
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Yay party at my house tonight! ^_^
Friends in bands are the best heh heh!
What's to look forward to?
21:08 Apr 09 2007
Times Read: 716
Well I have a photo shoot this week, I am really excited about this! I get to go to Columbus while I'm there I'm going to see friends and family. I have not been back to Mt. Vernon since I moved back up here to Cleveland. My cousin is going to call me today on his break it was good to hear from him, it's been too long since we've talked. He sounds like he wants to see me actually, seems as thought we've both changed. He told me I sound like myself again it's not only noticeable in person but even in my voice. I am really me again aren't I? :)
Also I'm finally going to get to see Deadstar Assembly play yay! They have two shows one is this weekend, and the other is next week. I cannot wait to go see them, I always love going to see a band I like play but this is a first time show for me! I'm going to dress up and look my best it's been too long since I've done that too. I'm not going to dress up because I want all the attention, or because I want to try and sleep with someone in the band. I'm doing it for me because when I look good I feel good, and vice versa. It's been a little while since I've been to a show, a long time since I've gone out and do something for myself. I deserve to go and have a good time get out of the house meet some new people meet the band. It's all so exciting for once I have something to look forward to! ^_^
This week is going to be awesome finally!
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pics
03:43 Apr 09 2007
Times Read: 725
Ok I've delayed cause I've been lazy, but uh yea I'm going to post them now. Go look now!!! ^_^
Don't be suprised when you see they're not like the others, I said so already...
Also please don't take them too seriously they're just pictures. If you judge me for them piss off, because your comments won't ever make me change a single thing!
shit never looked so good
10:24 Apr 05 2007
Times Read: 734
I feel like crap so I decided to express myself throught picture. I love the way my pics turned out! I look so sad but so pretty at the same time. These pics are like none taken before, I can't wait to post them later today. As for now I want to sleep and stop feeling like I want to cry, cause I have no shoulder to cry on (big suprise) I think I'll try and write some poetry as well. It's been too long...
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